Everybody hurts, sometime*

* R.E.M 1982- I'm impressed with myself. I've used a song from the 1980's. Usually I'm doing songs from the 60's and 70's. Everybody hurts sometime, especially when someone tells you they don’t want you to work at their company any more. It’s easier when you're younger, even though the pain of rejection is worse. I was fired at 16 from my first job, at a typewriter repair store (think about it and you’ll figure out what the business did. I guess it’s like book binding, once it was very important.) because I didn’t know how to work. Nastia was fired from the movie theatres at the mall for cursing at an employee that was bothering her. She also lost her job at Helen Hayes because she picked a child up by the arm and that is against the rules, could have dislocated their arm.

Now Elena got her first job at Stop and Shop. She did an amazing job and was promoted to assistant to a manager. She began to hate the job, took some classes, at BOCES, in automotive repair and got a job at a local tire shop. Most everybody there loved her. The two who were not nice to her gave her grief, so she mouthed off to them. And yes after several years of this, the boss who didn’t like her fired her.

I remember coming home from getting fired at sixteen and going to sleep, I was so upset. I don’t remember what Nastia did. Elena is acting a little quiet, and nicer to the dogs. When we talk about the two people who are responsible for her not having a job, she is less nice, and I can’t blame her. I've been fired three times in my life. The first one hurt, the second one was a shock that came out of left field. The third and hopefully last one I should have known was coming. I was just drifting, looking for accounts in my territory, a territory I wasn’t sure what the boundaries were and a boss too busy with what he wanted to do than to manage his sales staff. After the last firing, I drifted and didn’t try to get a job in the industry I knew because it was dying and I knew it. I don’t want Elena to drift. She is young and does have some time. Her bills are minimal and she does have some money saved. They have both been good at saving lately. I asked Sean one day or night once recently, was he happy. When Nastia mentioned it to me a few days later she made it sound weird, it wasn’t I was trying to point out that most people don’t realize when they are happy, until it has passed and they compare it to where they are now. I, being older, occasionally stop to ask myself if I am happy, and I have realized I’m pretty happy now. Teri and I have financially gotten back on top of things.We’re making plans to fix up the house and maybe retire in it or whatever the future brings. Sean said he is happy, Nastia is almost always happy, I hope, haven’t asked. Elena is always hard to read, she is so much like me when I was her age. She keeps to herself, seems mad a lot of the time. She doesn’t have too many friends. Is not outgoing. Maybe I’m channeling me and she is nothing like me, but I see that person who when she smiles at you can melt your heart. I don’t know how I managed to get here from where I was, and I didn’t have nine years in Russian on my back. She is strong and I hope she knows how much she is loved. And we know how big of a heart she hides. She’ll come out the other side better off, I believe. When KJ goes looking for her he will yell, "Yell-na. The girl who doesn't like kids, likes him and he loves her. Everybody hurts, sometime lyrics When your day is long And the night, the night is yours alone When you're sure you've had enough Of this life, well hang on Don't let yourself go 'Cause everybody cries Everybody hurts sometimes Sometimes everything is wrong Now it's time to sing along When your day is night alone (hold on, hold on) If you feel like letting go (hold on) If you think you've had too much Of this life, well hang on 'Cause everybody hurts Take comfort in your friends Everybody hurts Don't throw your hand, oh no Don't throw your hand If you feel like you're alone No, no, no, you are not alone If you're on your own in this life The days and nights are long When you think you've had too much Of this life to hang on Well, everybody hurts sometimes Everybody cries Everybody hurts, sometimes And everybody hurts sometimes So hold on, hold on Hold on, hold on, hold on Hold on, hold on, hold on Everybody hurts